Take a step back, some people are not ambitious when it comes to finding the better half but thought thoughtful and consider it. Throwing yourself into an adventure will create more problems than pleasure.
There is still a lot going on and your full attention and focus are required. Your reactions are appropriate, but nevertheless it is worth considering a holiday break.
It is time to relax and get a real break if you don't want to risk a burnout. You have to understand that partying is not really relaxing, focus on yourself and your needs.