How about showing a little bit of spontaneity to jumpstart your relationship? If your counterpart does not react as you expected, relent peacefully, they will finally enjoy your new self.
The pressure is still high, and it will stay that way almost until the end of the month. By then you will find the eagerly awaited support you took hope with your huge challenges.
You are gaining the strength that you urgently need to remove all the obstacles that are thrown between your feet.